Sunday, November 21, 2010

Life changes



Continuing on with my blog slackerness (is that a word?)...our daughter will be 2 in less that 2 weeks. I plan on having a small Care Bear themed birthday party for her. I am excited!


There have been a few happenings in our world. I recently went back to work after a lovely (almost) 2 year break. Initially it took some getting used to. I now have 2 kids to tend to, the house, the job, etc. I think we are adjusting. One thing I have been doing alot of lately is thinking. I don't feel as if I am really "doing" anything with my life. I feel as if I am now just coasting. I find myself looking for direction and purpose. I guess, as I approach my 30th birthday, it has me evaluating my life so far. Am I the best parent I can be? Am I the best person I can be? What have I accomplished? Am I where I envisioned myself 12 years ago? I work with high school kids. I listen to them talk. I get to see their passion for life and things. They have goals and aspirations. I did too! What happened? I dreamed and did. I wanted to live my life to the fullest and have fun. I accomplished my earlier goals and then just never made new ones. Guess I got to "busy" with life's routines. So....time to make some changes. Can't keep coasting, so I need to make new goals. My first goal is to be the best mother I can be (more quality time, less yelling, teaching them more). My second goal is to be healthy (more exercise and healthier eating). Next, make more effort to LIVE my life and not just coast. I don't want to be the "boring" chick that thinks she is still young. Trying so desperately to cling on to what she was and not who she wants to be. I don't want all my best times to have already happened, I want to make even better memories!